of monday’s thoughts…
i started my sunday with “5mins, k”. An hour of 5mins later did i finally got myself out of bed and into the shower. the boy and i were goin’ to AOV, to help OSB out in runnin’ a mini tourney. it was prolly gonna be the boy’s last weekend and as true as the passion goes, we spent it at the field.
i started helpin’ out at the technical tent, cleanin’ markers and masks. as i was handlin’ the tippman markers, it brought back memories of the time when i had just only started playin’ paintball. those markers were heavy! and i smiled to myself and gave myself an imaginary pat on the back for the growth i have showed in the sport. no more mechanical markers, just Oscar, the mini.
the day was boilin’. i was almost wishin’ it would rain but rain would mean delay in games and the ref in me just wanna push games. later i took over alfa’s photographer role and went into the field, talonmark 3/4pants, slipper and my pandora. oh, i managed to put on my tigger ears too. :p it was interestin’ to be the phoographer and i had a feelin’-feelin’ moment of bein’ like the residentevilchef. heh but of course i’m no where near to the great man.
paintballs flew all over and i must say, the female players in that tourney were pretty impressive. i certainly gave them credit for crawlin’ through the muddy field. i was just wearin’ slippers and whilst i know i could just go and wash my feet later, i still tredded carefully. yes, i’m a girl who doesn’t like to get dirty but yes, i’m a paintballer. 
it was a wise decision to go help out coz we met pretty much everyone from the osb family. it was good for the boy say his goodbyes (again). we hung out, played bluff, before adjournin’ to the nearby makan spot for the usual debrief and lepak sessio. even when the rain came down, the family still stuck together. last night’s sessio ended with tabong, boy, alfa, the boy and me havin’ lots of tehs over discussions of serious matters and nonsensical stories. there was a point where i turned to the boy and told him, “these are good people.” and i meant it 100% and more.
the rain was still comin’ down when we decided to go our separate ways. and i really treasured alfa’s friendship when he made sure he said goodbye to the boy properly. i’m sure the boy knows that he’s left SKIN in good hands durin’ his absence.
and it was durin’ the cold and wet ride back to CIQ that i realised the boy was gonna be leavin’ soon and i knew i would be a total mess at the airport when the time comes for him to leave. i started to lightly sob, huggin’ the boy tight as we manouvered our way through the horrendous traffic back to singapore.
my life has gone down paths i never expected. i am thankful for some, wished it was different with some but at the end of the day, i am who i am coz of my past and no one can change that. it is time to look forward to the future, put in the hard work for a better life for the boy and i, God willin’.
