of missin’ him..
so it has been a month now since the boy left for abu dhabi. a month since i have lived in the new flat. and a month of missin’ him and more.
today, i relished in the moment of wakin’ up late and not havin’ to go to work. fantastic. i eventually got myself out of bed and onto the couch. the telly was turned on and they were showin’ the volvo ocean race, the abu dhabi to sanya leg. i got hell excited when i saw abu dhabi. the boy had gone to watch the in-port race and i was hopin’ by some miracle, i would see him on telly. heck, i was even wavin’ to the telly! even if he did appear, it’s not like he could have waved back. :s it was then that i realised, i missed him, oh so much.
actually i have been missin’ him and it gets worse as days go by. even though as each day passes, the nearer i get to the day i see him again and join him to live in the uae. it does sux when i come home and there’s no one at home welcomin’ me..nor will i see the boy comin’ through the front door. 
i’ve been keepin’ myself busy this past week tryin to kill time till the next day comes. i’ve managed to accumulate another 2 big bags full of trash (or rather things i have decided to just get rid of). i have done filin’ as well, clearin’ a lot of the paperwork we had chucked one corner. there’s still a bunch of letters etc at marsilin’ but at least i have my filin’ system ready now. i’m still hesistant to touch anythin’ in the 3rd room. i just dunno what to do with them! ohhh, i have cleared a fair bit of stuff on the dinin’ table and can see my placemats again. it’s not fully cleared but there’s progress.
sometimes i wonder how it would be if the job offer didn’t come along. we would have been able to do so much to the flat and enjoy livin’ in punggol. but i know that things happen for a reason and we chose for the boy to take up the job offer coz’ it would mean a brighter future for us. the boy has already made progress in his job and made good impressions so God willin’ good things will happen. just a matter of time.
for now, i’ll have to continue prayin’ for good things for us, for him to stay safe and be in good company and for me to find a job in ad. God willin’.
